( last login Dec 16, 2014 ad #51260)
Hello, you out there and me in here. I sometimes wonder if even I would be able to write a clear and honest description of who I am, if one could form an accurate image by reading it. Do you see the soul of the poet by reading the poem? lol. It is not the first time I rewrite here, trying to figure out if the essential is clearly conveyed, aware that we maybe all have a personal habit of associating and extrapolating from any insufficient data. It is not easy to pinpoint at who we truly are, moreover things in life change and are bound to change again, but I see some constants in me that will never change and this may give hints at what is possible:
I value compassion and loving-kindness imbuing simple honest observation and simple direct selfless reaction. Perhaps wisdom develops from that and then what we want to achieve in life becomes clearer. I do not feel I have a mission sent to me from above but I certainly get inspiration from the reality that surounds me. I like action and thrills specially in discovering the world and people around me but I value more simple, quiet yet deep intimate relationships where the feeling of a need to pretend and hide simply vanishes from realizing its obsolescence in the face of what can grow between us, between two people.
As for what the world has inspired me in regard to what I feel like contributing in this life: I feel that the space and the reasons for greed to grow have to be narrowed in our world, and space for justice, freedom and Love widened. I would like to see and contribute the best I can into the birth of some meaningful projects that would grow to have the power to impact globally the ways of our world. I am now writing a book in the hope it will have some impact. My journey so far has brought me to embrace Buddhism understanding, to become vegan, to adopt some health practices like Tai Ji and Thai massage. Other than that I have been a huge music aficionado for some decades. I also like to travel (I am in Thailand presently), from very early on I've been an observer and an explorer/experimentator, trying to seek understandings from different people and cultures and to be with Nature, feeling the ground, contemplating, looking for experiences that would bring me back to the present moment. I'm rather quiet and easy going but also outgoing and really free and open to all possibilities of life.
If our Mother-Earth was not so ill and human ways so destructive: I think that I would have opted for some kind of 'normal' laid-back (yet still challenging) life, most likely having to do with science, settled down in a natural surrounding, interacting with friends and strangers alike, having fun and being creative in some social activities, having hobbies, etc... maybe with my artistic side still predominent. But the global call has become so strong that it makes a whole difference... and for quite some time already I am feeling that effective solutions for our global mess are simply not coming! Probably because it would involve a complete redrawing of our society where those who are above would not get the means anymore to get so much above. The solutions we hear about all seem to simply aim at delaying an unavoidable end. Our sacred infinite potential in a messed-up world governed by greed! This mix makes things incredibly complex and it can get confusing, but I am sure there are solutions and anyway, as long as we can create space for happiness, peace, and creative fun, the drive to make things better will remain and with time something will be achieved.
I thought to leave this space blank, my description above beeing enough for you to know. I don't have fixed criterias, though of course I can see that some things cannot be otherwise, that for exemple, you are vegetarian or vegan for reasons beyond your personal health (no matter how it started), that you are generally positive and have the tendency to go out of your way if it is bound to make meaningful differences for others (for other species too of course), that you are active or inclined (at least wishing) to get socially involved, that you are independent yet feeling at times strongly connected to the whole world, to the whole universe, keeping alive a sense of adventure and readiness to step out of comfort zones, even to be ready to jump both feet off and leave everything behind if that leap of faith becomes necessary for another reality to emerge. Even if you prefer peaceful intimate moments and quiet time with good friends you are still drawn to meet people who are aware of our world situation and who genuinely want that this world changes and you can deal with some agitation that may be involved...
I am looking for a dedicated life partner to go hand in hand towards a goal that we will first have to commonly define, I would like to find someone who has a similar (yet your own) vision and understanding of where we stand in life and what is asked of us, and this should go way beyond local projects. If you recognise yourself or feel some importance in what I said, please don't hesitate, I would love to hear from you.